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Little Lizard on My Thumb
Within my hand you felt the sun
You didn’t flinch or care to run
A few long breaths we sat as one
Nothing here need we outrun
A sweet new world has begun
It’s open arms hold everyone
You’re welcome too, come be undone
A warming spot you shall become
For a little lizard on your thumb

Bisexual Awakening at a Meditation Retreat
Although it had tapped on my shoulder before
It simmered as something that I could ignore
My nerves and hesitation my only rapport
With other women that tried to pull me before

Sitting there, certain, I’d be fully focused
My eyes wandered to you, I happened to notice
The rose in your checks was a primal semiosis
All things about you as pure as the lotus

The sounds faded down and the whole world paused
All I saw was your essence, your eyes, and your thoughts
I wanted to touch you not sure of the cause
To love with such boundaries before was my loss

You stood and walked closer to get some more food
All I saw was your body your hat and your shoes
I logged every detail as my precious clues
The sound came back on, now with you as my muse

I reasoned and thought I’m still in control
I looked at the stars to return to my soul
I took a breath in, I shouldn’t enroll
But then when you saw me, it was a rush of gold

I returned to my room with a change rising through me
I carefully touched as it translated to me
My beautiful body held all the right keys
A sacred temple, a goddess, I started to see

In silent retreat for seven days more
I knew your walk and your hands on the door
The times we crossed paths I kept a tight score
The times I sat near you I prayed for encore

I risked it and looked for a possible glance
Surprised you were there holding space for my trance
Your calming deep gaze met my firey stance
A moment so potent is worth every chance

New to this world, I gave you the credit
I still needed reason for my sweet expression
You’d be a good place for external projection
Still seasons away from my fullest intention

Floating Nest
My first time to see a humming bird in it’s nest. It was as tiny as you’d expect. Secure on a branch that was swaying aggressively in the wind. You flew into it just as we flee to our homes during storms. You sat in it stubbornly and closed your eyes. Refusing to be shaken. It swayed like a boat being thrashed around by waves in an ocean of air. You looked down and saw me and then closed your eyes again.

Cat scratch
Laying with a cat as I often did
In a moment when time did not exist
I saw you and projected my human bliss
Your paw on my face as sweet as a kiss
My skin was so soft
I figured you knew
Just how I knew to be gentle with you
I smiled and enjoyed the warmth in your paw
Not worried that inside was a very sharp claw
Relaxed then a jolt it suddenly dawned
indifference was the deepest wound that I saw

Summertime in Seattle
I watched her pick blackberries on her tippy toes
We walked on a path made for one
Both on the edge so we could hold hands
The people around us were happy, and we were part of that

Laying in the sun after a dip
I made her laugh
I’d like to do that again

Pebbles on her collar bone
On her stomach
On her thighs
I’d cut my safety line
I hint at it, seeing if she’d go with me
She doesn’t bite

She tells her her story
The whisper of the water sends a word.
Respect. Respect that she is not yours
I knew it was a moment that would end soon
But I wandered deeper
A person I’m willing to grow for
She could be my north star for a moment
Our bodies fit so well together

She worried that I wont catch my flight
But that was the last thing on my mind

I made it home safely
I was a lover on her list

I knew I’d be traveling
The moment I saw her

In my dream I saw the truth
I was with me, who was staring at you
I asked you to come
But we both deeply knew
You were to stay
And our love was not glue
I yelled are you sure
Your silence ensued
I had to release
To the wind then I flew
Our spirits still play
I know it was true
I wonder if you felt
the way I felt you
i never reach out
for fear of what it could do

Two years later

I reached out once more for an indulgent dip
Your tongue on my lips and your hands on my hips
I fully surrendered to give you the space
To step into all of your masculine grace
No edits, no preference, let’s just see where you go
Perhaps it was me who was stopping the flow
This was the fear of what it could do
You weren’t looking at me
While I fully saw you
My body took one more for the team
It didn’t feel shame or sadness or mean
I got what I needed for total release
A final conclusion
And goodbye to the dream

Seek The Divine
One time I was tripping on shrooms
The walls turned to water
And the skies beamed through

Swimming in a sea of souls
Not human, but they had hearts of gold

We went back to earth with me as an eye
I was where you were at that moment in time
Scary sounds and chaos, darkness ensued
How could this be where we have put you

Ahead was a gate and it felt even worse
How can I stop this
This evil
This curse

I struggled and cried as we walked to a small pen
The next room was bloodshed and tears up ahead

All i wanted to do was to take you home
Screeches & cold sharp chains coming close

I bent down to see you, to look in your eye
Like a child whose trapped and can only cry

You saw me, I saw you, you were just like me
You reminded me of when we were swimming in our soul sea

This is torture – a terror – horribly true
Just tell me what I can do
Please let me save you

Bravely you told me
As sad as it is
You forgive us
You love us
you know we’re just kids

I said I’m so sorry
on behalf of us all
You held so much power I stood there in awe
You said you were sent here in a dark time
And the only way to help you is to seek the Divine

I asked for clarity but your time was next
You gave one more look then you bowed down your head
You walked past the gate
That sealed your fate
We took your life and i lied wide awake

Every second, every moment it happens again
All that inside of our BBQ din

You live in my heart
The pig I deeply knew
And somehow you got me to understand you

Cauliflower Cutie
I wandered out into the world
to my tiny coffee shop
Sketching on my clipboard
Ovulation in full affect

You sat at the table next to me
Your energy was neutral
You didn’t take up too much space
But you didn’t hide

She brought your soup
You were very polite
It’s the soup I saw on the menu that caught my eye
I waited patiently for you to experience a bite

I asked is it good?
Yes, it’s very nice…

Do you want a bite?
…

Do I want a bite?
A stranger
A person
I dont even know
Offers his spoon
And hands me his bowl

As if we were brothers
As if we were lovers
The contact
The connection
The world needs this affection

I moved my hair
I leaned over off my chair
I took just enough for the taste on my tongue
I like it, it’s nice
It’s pretty good right?

Thank you
You’re welcome
I see your soul through your eyes
a potential romance unfolding in another life

Your roots are in Oregon. Calling you home. Venice is a chapter. It had to be known.

He was here for the Ocean
Neither willing to chase
Back to my clipboard
My grounding embrace

He didn’t know his Purpose
It ate him day and night
He didn’t know his Purpose
He’d thrash and then get high

He thought he could deceive me
But little did he know
A Purpose comes and Purpose grows
Away from those who stole

He thought he could outrun it
And hide behind my light
A disservice I did not grant him
For it is a worthy fight

My Purpose can not be his
A fact we deeply knew
He’d stay under my covers
Even if it’d turn me blue

The pursuit of perfect Purpose
Lessons hard as they may be
I needed him to hijack mine
Alas to set me free

Protected am I standing
Amidst his waves of fear
A cry that used to call me
Abandoning my tier

Now I know a Purpose
Is more that just a jolt
A unique and bold assignment
All to call us home

Shakti Rising
She fucked and she felt it
She grew and she melted
She flowed and unraveled
She rose and she traveled
She came and she came
in all cells of her being
She opened her eyes
Now as a queen

A Moment Passed
These five horses. Come Friday, there will be no more five. That moment is over, and so too, I enter into a flow that I know I can not control. Just as her soul can soon be boundless, so too will I. She takes my safety line with her, as a direct line back to all my friends who came before.

Bravely Breathe
you don’t want to be sober
then you don’t want to be stoned
You don’t want to be forgotten
But you don’t want to be known


Running beats out standing
In your skin, your body, your bones


Will I always be a reckless child
Searching for my way back home?

Being takes mighty courage
To stand amidst the blows
Seeing all that is around
Requires you to grow


Growing a perspective
To see it all right here

Empowers you to let it go
After all, it’s only fear



Fearing is a feeling

A feeling comes and goes
Take action when it’s not around

And to ground it flows 



Grounding is an anchor
Safety is it’s muse

Match that with perspective

You’ll have both worthy views


Crashing coming at you

Thrashing at your flesh
Standing tall with your breath
At last, you are at rest

Vortex
Every cat deserves to nap in the sun
Every horse deserves to kick and run
Every snake deserves to slither and hunt
and every human deserves to delight in this fun
From watching and holding space for the One
The One within us that can’t be undone
If not through us it finds another run
But never again as you and me
A different form but the same Life force you see
For the Essence is a circle of infinity
Its for our own pleasure to step into our Divinity
It lives as us boldly and expressively
A unique unfolding that’s your breathing beauty
It’s to our highest benefit to chauffeur and let it be
As guardians of the entire galaxy
To clear the space and to allow it’s only plea
But even if we don’t it still loves with feat
And you have the right to experience it individually
It’s a win win win in synchronicity
A plan of perfection and wondrous harmony
Once you taste it there’s no place for catastrophe
A thing of the past, a paradigm in memory
You see the sea in all it’s abundancy
And you step into the vortex calling Thee

Cans of Murder
its true
having a cat
a chicken is murdered
a fish is murdered
maybe a turkey
what is justifiable?
To be in the midst of change
Is painful

Once I listened
You no longer bit me
You mirrored my shadows
The change was in me, not you
A breakthrough you pointed to
Once I listened

A daytime nap
Resting in sweet simplicity
My hands started to move
But it wasn’t me
It was You
I recognized your presence
I had seen you before
But this time I surrendered

Instead of running out the door
I dreamed of your return
even though I felt quite attacked
It’s just that I had to calibrate to your great embrace
Divine Relentless Love is a lot to face


But every time it ended I prayed to see you again
Swearing next time I’ll face you in spite of all my great sins

You said shh keep sleeping, stay just like that
Let me move your hands 
can you allow me to do that?

Yes I surrender, move them around
Light bright beaming through me
An essence no sounds
Just presence and trust, it felt so very good
To let my body rest knowing that you understood

just how to move me in perfect harmony
I woke up giving thanks for what I had seen

Uncatchable
I am a flower
I am the ocean
I am pure power
set in Divine motion

I am the sun
bright as can be
I am pure joy
with a moon that calls me

I am soft
And I am fierce
Some call me free
Some call me queer

Most try to tame me
to catch my great light
But we both know
I’m soon to take flight

You think it’s me
that gave you your bliss
Forgetting that you
also have access to it

You reach out to touch me
to grab for my hair
But all you come back with
is a handful of air

You curse my name
But long gone am I
Let your hair down
So you too can fly

Prayer
My animals and I are protected

I walk through the portal now

I celebrate successes

I surrender to the how

Our perfect property calls us
My path is all glory

My heart shines with my purpose

For all the world to see



And so it is

4.5.2024
Our muscles moved as one while our minds played Leapfrog

4.5.2024
Thank you past me, for the affirmations

4.5.2024
I think this is what a yes from God feels like?

3.4.2024
I can taste the sun in my strawberry

2.30.2024
Can you feel the air we are swimming in?

11.13.2023
My vision board pulls me like a bird in migration

1.2.2023
Spiders –
gatekeepers of the morning

2.3.2024
Once you start to see the we in bugs,
you’re on the path

3.07.2024
My awakening is here, the only thing in question is how much of it I can allow

3.07.2024
I will no longer stunt my own growth

1.03.2024
Two shooting stars
Crossed paths for a moment

6.3.2024
three months after I let him go, I saw that it actually worked

6.3.2024
Five years after I made my vision board, I looked up and caught goosebumps

6.20.2024
As I faced the fall into love with him, I might have ran, but I knew I’d be okay, because I have art
Thank God

6.20.2024
Thank goodness I entered into this next realm of ascension. Just in time, to take this on

3.26.2025
Oh how young I was

4.14.2025
Oh how young I was

5.18.2025
Oh how young I was

6.20.2024
As I faced the fall into love with him, I worried he wouldn’t always be there to catch me. What a silly thing to expect.

4.16.2025
I want people to see me, without trying to catch me

4.17.2025
Physical exercise is the courageous refusal of allowing fears to manifest in the body

4.20.2025
Sitting here watching people play energy ping pong at this dinner party

4.22.2025
God asks me daily if I’m having a blast yet. My answer is more consistently and with more enthusiasm becoming yes

5.8.2025
Miss Kitty lays here with me in her field of consciousness. BB’s footsteps in the leaves. Frogs chirping. Finally, a breeze.

6.17.2025
I played my hand, now I let it unfold. No take backs.

6.24.2025
I’m on this ship, with all my animals, in the sea of the unknown, with a prayer and a dream

7.16.2025
how beautiful is the human heart, that we care so deeply, even if our hearts bleed

7.16.2025
I’ve never felt time move against my will with so much force before in my entire life. Tomorrow will come too soon. My body refuses to sleep. My heart quivers.

7.16.2025
I know it’s a good photo when I can smell you through it

7.19.2025
Yesterday I was a horse girl, today I am a horse woman
The difference is deep.

4. 22. 24
Saying yes to Me is saying yes to We

4.22.24
My lists can’t keep up with me anymore

4.27.2024
I saw a hummingbird through your eyes

5.8.2024
My cats are my cleansing crystals

3.01.2024
I tend to mistake a moment of limitless connection with having found my soulmate

4.13.2024
Sure, I’d get more writing done if I didn’t have animals. But what would I write about?

5.17.2024
And then my bitterness turned to gratitude
I have the power to choose the thought that feels best

3.08.2024
If you start to question if your creativity is actually real, you’ll never allow it to be

2.14.2023
Maybe was her least favorite word, but it was the only word I was sure of

4.20.2024
I wept not at the sight of death, but at the sight of beauty

6.3.2024
Ari. His eyes pierce through my masks to the depths of my being. Then he falls asleep, because he feels safe. Millions of years of evolution to reach this exchange

6.25.2024

I looked around my perfect humble home, and saw that it was alive and filled with a harmonious mixture of the past, present, and future.

7.14.2024
I can sense the illusion
Holding me
I give you my consent to cut all safety lines
let me see

4.01.2025
You have given me the biggest most unexpected turn of events. Greater than my wildest dreams. Affirmations work.

4.02.2025
Oh how wonderful You are. How you shake me to my core.

4.13.2025
I can feel the way energy moves through your body

4.15.2025
My mother looked me dead in the eyes and said “yeah you don’t want to be fucking around in the promenade”

4.17.2025
My brightness is about to shatter you

4.22.2025
Can we chill on the high steaks challenges yet?
Once you stop regressing when I don’t challenge you, yes

4.24.2025
Just gonna binge eat this couscous, then take a bath, then open this mother fucking portal

5.17.2025
Last time I didn’t even see the test & this time I passed it. Blind spots dissipating left and right

6.16.2025
Where does she run when she put all her eggs into her basket of hopes and dreams

6.25.2024
I propel the ship with my breath, I steer the ship with my thoughts

6.25.2025
Create the destination with your vibration

7.16.2025
Being aware of a great change happening at my hand, and against my will all at the same time. I’m walking into my own death (of this paradigm)
And I’m terrified
BB takes my chains with her to a realm where they dissipate effortlessly

7.16.2025
we are both child and mother at the same time in a flowing dance of harmony

7.21.2025
Why would anyone ride a horse when they could run with one instead?

5.15.2024
My cat could be laying anywhere, but here she lays with me

5.17.2024
Animals see in energy

5.29.2024
Sometimes I go on runs with my hair down instead of tied back to keep me free and light

6.3.2024
Everywhere I look, one of my animals is there seeing me.

6.3.2024
She leapt with me into our new paradigm of friendship

6.3.2024
To value and to be valued and to express without compromise is the limitless and ongoing ebb and flow of a true friendship

5. 17. 2024
I prayed for strength to embody what I wished to be, and then endurance to live it long enough for it to come true

2.12.2024
I just grabbed a fork to eat my Japanese white rice. I’m a riot right now

4.20.2024
My heart finally shattered and out poured my art

5.2.2024
My creativity thrives under twinkle lights

6.3.2024
Sometimes I take a bath before my runs, to release the energetic blocks that slow me down

6.3.2024
Starbucks would cease to exist the moment we all stepped into our potentials

4.05.2025
The beauty industry would cease to exist the moment we all sensed ourselves

4.14.2025
To the people in my life who make me furious: Thank you for giving me something to breathe through

4.14.2024
At some point I have to let myself build momentum on what I believe in

3.12.2025
I looked up and saw Goddesses all around me. Just like I envisioned.

4.14.2025
A social media “like” can be so many things. A wink and a poke and a nudge and a cry and a call and a game and documentation of change. Don’t underestimate the complexity of our human nature

4.17.2025
He says he knows me, but I can tell I’m still a mystery to him

4.22.2025
It wasn’t until 2pm today that I remembered to breath. Even then I didn’t start until the next day.

4.23.2025
Either you see the Universe inside of me or you don’t. It’s ok if you don’t, we just can’t go any farther together

4.24.2025
Laying here on my hammock with my chickens napping on my chest, on this perfect spring day, I know there is no way I am on the wrong path

6.16.2025
It’s simple my love, just don’t drop the basket

6.18.2025
I’ve always been an all or nothing type of lady

6.25.2025
Don’t let fear take us. This is a calling for us to step into our ability to see past illusion

7.16.2025
I will not look away, at the sight of my heart shattering like a chandelier. For with her body crashing down, I vow face every single moment. So her death may be as death is supposed to be. Enlightening. That is my last greatest gift to receive and to give from her on this physical realm.

7.16.2025
the more i see, the more i bleed

7.17.2025
tender is this heart of gold that takes this pain and breaks the mold